The further I move away from March 20th, the better I seem to get. The radiation treatments I had, 35 in a 40 day period, really caught up with me over the last 10 days. I will not go in to details, but as you can imagine, it has not been fun. Seems like my condition and the weather have been competing over which could be the crappiest over the last couple of weeks. Actually, I bet I am the only person in Atlanta who is glad for the number of rain days we had recently. Its only because I am stuck inside and hardly ever leave the house. That fact, along with nice weather and knowing everybody is out having fun, would have been to much for me. So I guess it is true what they say, "misery does love company". I don't want this to be all about me and how bad I have felt recently, although this is why I have not been writing anything lately. My wife and daughter have been there for me through all of this. They have made it so much easier for me to deal with a lot of what has happened. My appreciation of them and of life in general grows as much as Isabella has in the last couple of months. Getting this sick, and reflecting on life is something you don't imagine happening to yourself until you get much older. But I am here to tell you, having a loving and close family is the best remedy for any illness you could ever imagine. They remind you of what life is worth living for, and you don't waste anymore time thinking and worrying about small and insignificant things in your life that don't effect it one way or another. I have done a lot of reading in the last three months or so, and one thing seems to have sunk in more then the others. It went something like this. The author was talking about a number of books and different ways and aspects certain people and cultures look for some kind of meaning in life. In the end his favorite answer and its mine as well, is this. When asked about some meaning or secret to life, or what was life for, or what is the meaning of life, the best answer seem to be "life....life is for living". It sounds pretty simple I know. But for me it is what I am looking forward to doing the most. Just living my life.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Better days ahead.
The further I move away from March 20th, the better I seem to get. The radiation treatments I had, 35 in a 40 day period, really caught up with me over the last 10 days. I will not go in to details, but as you can imagine, it has not been fun. Seems like my condition and the weather have been competing over which could be the crappiest over the last couple of weeks. Actually, I bet I am the only person in Atlanta who is glad for the number of rain days we had recently. Its only because I am stuck inside and hardly ever leave the house. That fact, along with nice weather and knowing everybody is out having fun, would have been to much for me. So I guess it is true what they say, "misery does love company". I don't want this to be all about me and how bad I have felt recently, although this is why I have not been writing anything lately. My wife and daughter have been there for me through all of this. They have made it so much easier for me to deal with a lot of what has happened. My appreciation of them and of life in general grows as much as Isabella has in the last couple of months. Getting this sick, and reflecting on life is something you don't imagine happening to yourself until you get much older. But I am here to tell you, having a loving and close family is the best remedy for any illness you could ever imagine. They remind you of what life is worth living for, and you don't waste anymore time thinking and worrying about small and insignificant things in your life that don't effect it one way or another. I have done a lot of reading in the last three months or so, and one thing seems to have sunk in more then the others. It went something like this. The author was talking about a number of books and different ways and aspects certain people and cultures look for some kind of meaning in life. In the end his favorite answer and its mine as well, is this. When asked about some meaning or secret to life, or what was life for, or what is the meaning of life, the best answer seem to be "life....life is for living". It sounds pretty simple I know. But for me it is what I am looking forward to doing the most. Just living my life.
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Look for the small miracles, and you"ll find they are everywhere.....In just two days, tomorrow will be yesterday......To stay the course..Sometimes you have to make waves.....
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The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.....and that would be you.